nothing can ever hurt me as much as you did.
so many thoughts constantly running through my mind.
i'm a baby... sometimes i act tough, but i'm actually a big fat baby who cries over almost anything and everything
i think i'll finish this later, when i get back... if i go out
*****************************
ok, so i'm back...
erase what i said earlier, cos i was thinking about it
and i guess i should have said that nothing anyone has done to me has hurt me the way you have.
its hard to explain something without giving too much away.
anyways, its late and i really cbf atm
did go out today...... was asked to go chasers and wanted to go but we're all so broke and guess no one was up for it this week. sighhhhh... shall go clubbing next week though, miss it :(
so went to the movies, went to go see the incredible hulk! not too bad........ best part was at the end, when IRONMAN showed up hehe, love him <3 he makes me feel all tingly inside. and yes, i did happen to squeal like a little girl when i saw his face haaha ;) RAAAAWRRRR
tomorrow i have my cousins bday and annette's 19th
already promised my cousin i would go to hers, so am quite disappointed that i can't make it to nettie's
didnt know it was on the same day!!
anyways, anywhoos, anyhowwwwwwwww...
the countdown on my phone says 3 days to go
TROIS!!!!!
*pulse goes up & turns into the hulkess*
Friday, June 20, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
holidays
so yay! holidays are here
got about a month of holidays.....
if i get some extra dosh eg. a job... then i'll go to qld in july
otherwise my mother told me she booked our tickets, so apparently i'm going to thailand and malaysia in september yay haha... so i'll probs just save up for that.
anyways, my holiday tasks are:
anyways, i'm extra bored today.................. i dunno where everyone is =\
been sleeping all day long lol
time for some loveletter i guess :)
P.S HI NELLY!
got about a month of holidays.....
if i get some extra dosh eg. a job... then i'll go to qld in july
otherwise my mother told me she booked our tickets, so apparently i'm going to thailand and malaysia in september yay haha... so i'll probs just save up for that.
anyways, my holiday tasks are:
- get my friggin p's
- clean my room
- dye my hair
- look for a car
- get some cash flow in
anyways, i'm extra bored today.................. i dunno where everyone is =\
been sleeping all day long lol
time for some loveletter i guess :)
P.S HI NELLY!
Monday, June 16, 2008
My God Blog
i guess i got so caught up with my own life, that i started to drift away from you.
i'm glad that this got my attention, and that i took the time to read it.
I dreamed I had an interview with God.
“So you would like to interview me?” God asked
“If you have the time” I said.
God smiled, “My time is eternity”
“What questions do you have in mind for me?”
“What surprises you most about humankind?...”
God answered...
“That they get bored with childhood. They rush to grow up and then long to be children again.”
“That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health.”
“That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future.”
“That they live as if they will never die, and die as if they had never lived.”
God’s hand took mine and we were silent for awhile
And then I asked...
“As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons you want your children to learn?”
God replied with a smile
“To learn they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is let themselves be loved.”
“To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others.”
“To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.”
“To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and it takes many years to heal them.”
“To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness.”
“To learn that there are persons who love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings.”
“To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently.”
“To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others. But that they must forgive themselves.”
“And to learn that I am here.. Always.”
- Anonymous
***
FORGIVE AND FORGET
and returning to a previous issue, "forgiving and forgetting"
i don't think i explained it properly.... it was more out of anger
over the past month, i have been challenged more then twice on this issue, it not so much that i want to prove myself as right... its more that i can see how complex it seems to others
i can see that those who may not be catholics or christians, can see it in a more objective and technical way - how can you forgive and forget? if so there will be no recollection of the wrong done to you. if so, you won't remember the actual forgiving aspect.
So I did a little more research to help me to express it clearer........ I REALLY REALLY THINK PEOPLE SHOULD READ THIS PART AS IT IS IMPORTANT.... TO ME, TO CHRISTIANS, TO GOD...... and deep down inside, if you open up your mind, to you!
Sometimes, someone does something to you that hurts so bad, you genuinely cannot forgive the person. You want to, but you cant. I'm talking about a situation where someone close to you, someone you trusted, actually walked all over you, destroyed your friendship, took your trust, stomped on it, and threw it away(Bit dramatic, but you get my point).
How do you begin to even think about forgiving the person? Despite all of this, God says forgive. If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. God would never have asked you to forgive, if he didn't think you could.
I, along with many others may consider themselves as a forgiving person. Until the day came that someone actually hurt me. Then I began to understand why the Bible hammered on the issue of forgiveness. Because it is not an easy task!.
In fact, many times, you believe you have forgiven someone. Until you try and relay the story to someone else.... do you notice how your heart still races, and your emotions run wild?
You tell yourself, you may even tell God that you have truly forgiven that person, A few months later, someone asked me about that person, I, genuinely believing that I had forgiven and forgotten, I began to tell my story. To my shock and horror, as the story tumbled out of my mouth, my rage could not be hidden. I was still upset! I hadn't truly forgiven as God instructed. I hadn't forgotten either. If you truly forgive from the bottom of your heart, you forget. Just like God does. God says he will not remember your past sins, once you confess and forsake them.
When you say you have forgiven someone, you must try to forget what they did to you. If you hold on to the bad memories of the hurt, it is likely that you begin to stir up feelings of anger and hurt, and thus, erasing the desire to truly let go.
Here's a story:
A woman lost her only son and husband in one day. Before her very eyes, a rebel invaded her home, and burnt her husband and only child alive. As her family shrivelled into charcoal in her presence, she pleaded with the man for mercy; but the rebel ignored her as he cruelly destoyed her family. About 10 years after the horrible crime, the rebel was finally caught.
The woman, now old and grey from suffering the terrible loss, was invited to the court to witness the trail. As the trial judge condemned the criminal for his despicable and cold hearted killing of a woman's only child and husband, the woman looked on, frail and tired.
The judge, before deciding whether to deliver a death sentence, asked the woman to make a statement to the convicted killer, knowing that the woman's statement would further fuel the death sentence ruling he was about to deliver. So she did. As she struggled to her feet with tears flowing down her old, wrinkled face, she walked slowly towards the man with out stretched arms, while singing the song..' amazing grace.. how sweet the sound..'.
The rebel wept. He had expected the woman to curse him to death, but instead, she wept with love, and embraced him, saying the words, ' With my heart, I forgive you, just as Jesus forgave me for my sins'.....
Can you be like this woman? She surely had every right to demand for the death penalty. Imagine the pain she must have lived through each day, remembering the gruesome murders of her husband and child, yet, she forgave.
I think it takes true strength, IMMENSE strength and courage to forgive, especially in such cases as the above.
But, if you think you cant, take a moment and think about Jesus. He is a classic example of whom to follow, in trying to learn to truly forgive.
Jesus was spat on, insulted, mocked, beaten; because of you and I. He was crucified. Nails driven into his hands and feet. He was in so much pain that he sweat blood. And even in pain and humiliation, Jesus, remembered to asked God to forgive those who were flogging and mocking him.
Jesus died for OUR sins, he made the ultimate sacrifice for us....
we in turn, must not let his death mean nothing.
we must act to the best of our ability,
we must forgive, forget, and repent our sins.
ok, so i just sounded like one of those preachers LOL
it's just something i feel strongly about,
something i need to work on, because i will admit that i'm not such a good example.
even if this blog does not mean anything to you, it has made things a lot clearer to me.
i know one of the many things i need to work on to become a better person.
peace be with you! hahaa
(L)
i'm glad that this got my attention, and that i took the time to read it.
The Interview with God.
I dreamed I had an interview with God.
“So you would like to interview me?” God asked
“If you have the time” I said.
God smiled, “My time is eternity”
“What questions do you have in mind for me?”
“What surprises you most about humankind?...”
God answered...
“That they get bored with childhood. They rush to grow up and then long to be children again.”
“That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health.”
“That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future.”
“That they live as if they will never die, and die as if they had never lived.”
God’s hand took mine and we were silent for awhile
And then I asked...
“As a parent, what are some of life’s lessons you want your children to learn?”
God replied with a smile
“To learn they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is let themselves be loved.”
“To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others.”
“To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.”
“To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and it takes many years to heal them.”
“To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness.”
“To learn that there are persons who love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings.”
“To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently.”
“To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others. But that they must forgive themselves.”
“And to learn that I am here.. Always.”
- Anonymous
***
FORGIVE AND FORGET
and returning to a previous issue, "forgiving and forgetting"
i don't think i explained it properly.... it was more out of anger
over the past month, i have been challenged more then twice on this issue, it not so much that i want to prove myself as right... its more that i can see how complex it seems to others
i can see that those who may not be catholics or christians, can see it in a more objective and technical way - how can you forgive and forget? if so there will be no recollection of the wrong done to you. if so, you won't remember the actual forgiving aspect.
So I did a little more research to help me to express it clearer........ I REALLY REALLY THINK PEOPLE SHOULD READ THIS PART AS IT IS IMPORTANT.... TO ME, TO CHRISTIANS, TO GOD...... and deep down inside, if you open up your mind, to you!
Sometimes, someone does something to you that hurts so bad, you genuinely cannot forgive the person. You want to, but you cant. I'm talking about a situation where someone close to you, someone you trusted, actually walked all over you, destroyed your friendship, took your trust, stomped on it, and threw it away(Bit dramatic, but you get my point).
How do you begin to even think about forgiving the person? Despite all of this, God says forgive. If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. God would never have asked you to forgive, if he didn't think you could.
I, along with many others may consider themselves as a forgiving person. Until the day came that someone actually hurt me. Then I began to understand why the Bible hammered on the issue of forgiveness. Because it is not an easy task!.
In fact, many times, you believe you have forgiven someone. Until you try and relay the story to someone else.... do you notice how your heart still races, and your emotions run wild?
You tell yourself, you may even tell God that you have truly forgiven that person, A few months later, someone asked me about that person, I, genuinely believing that I had forgiven and forgotten, I began to tell my story. To my shock and horror, as the story tumbled out of my mouth, my rage could not be hidden. I was still upset! I hadn't truly forgiven as God instructed. I hadn't forgotten either. If you truly forgive from the bottom of your heart, you forget. Just like God does. God says he will not remember your past sins, once you confess and forsake them.
When you say you have forgiven someone, you must try to forget what they did to you. If you hold on to the bad memories of the hurt, it is likely that you begin to stir up feelings of anger and hurt, and thus, erasing the desire to truly let go.
Here's a story:
A woman lost her only son and husband in one day. Before her very eyes, a rebel invaded her home, and burnt her husband and only child alive. As her family shrivelled into charcoal in her presence, she pleaded with the man for mercy; but the rebel ignored her as he cruelly destoyed her family. About 10 years after the horrible crime, the rebel was finally caught.
The woman, now old and grey from suffering the terrible loss, was invited to the court to witness the trail. As the trial judge condemned the criminal for his despicable and cold hearted killing of a woman's only child and husband, the woman looked on, frail and tired.
The judge, before deciding whether to deliver a death sentence, asked the woman to make a statement to the convicted killer, knowing that the woman's statement would further fuel the death sentence ruling he was about to deliver. So she did. As she struggled to her feet with tears flowing down her old, wrinkled face, she walked slowly towards the man with out stretched arms, while singing the song..' amazing grace.. how sweet the sound..'.
The rebel wept. He had expected the woman to curse him to death, but instead, she wept with love, and embraced him, saying the words, ' With my heart, I forgive you, just as Jesus forgave me for my sins'.....
Can you be like this woman? She surely had every right to demand for the death penalty. Imagine the pain she must have lived through each day, remembering the gruesome murders of her husband and child, yet, she forgave.
I think it takes true strength, IMMENSE strength and courage to forgive, especially in such cases as the above.
But, if you think you cant, take a moment and think about Jesus. He is a classic example of whom to follow, in trying to learn to truly forgive.
Jesus was spat on, insulted, mocked, beaten; because of you and I. He was crucified. Nails driven into his hands and feet. He was in so much pain that he sweat blood. And even in pain and humiliation, Jesus, remembered to asked God to forgive those who were flogging and mocking him.
Jesus died for OUR sins, he made the ultimate sacrifice for us....
we in turn, must not let his death mean nothing.
we must act to the best of our ability,
we must forgive, forget, and repent our sins.
ok, so i just sounded like one of those preachers LOL
it's just something i feel strongly about,
something i need to work on, because i will admit that i'm not such a good example.
even if this blog does not mean anything to you, it has made things a lot clearer to me.
i know one of the many things i need to work on to become a better person.
peace be with you! hahaa
(L)
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