ceeebbssss stuurrrdy, ceeebsss life, im sick :(

i feel like everyone is getting engaged.. everyone except for me that is!!! all these olsh bitches getting engaged that were in my freaking year level and have been going out with their boyfriends for like 2 years but are somehow ready to tie the knot and get married

its so irritating and i don't know whyyyyyyyy =(
i think i'm just hatin =)

14- A picture of you and your family

taken at my cousins wedding L-R

cousin kioune, me, dad, popo (grandma), bro danny, mum, cousin wesley

15- Put your iPod MP3 on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

if you knew me well enough, you would know that i don't own any apple products lol,
so here's the songs on my mp3

1. notorious big - juicy
2. j-rice - i want you back
3. memphis bleek - infatuated
4. Justin Timberlake ft. Beyonce - Until The End Of Time (Remix)
5. Jagged Edge - True man
6. the wreckers - the good kind
7. taio cruz - i cant say go
8. marcos hernadez - if you were mine
9. deepside - what i need
10. houston - ain't nothing wrong

not a bad selection of songs :P

Sooo.. Im still here :) yay! Guess we shouldn't believe those who try and predict the end of the world for only god knows when... Right?

On another note I still love you all!!

so i just found out about this rapture end of the world judgement day thing today .. well a couple of hours ago and what the hell!?
i've heard nothing about it until just then and now im completely freaking out
you don't know how easily i believe things... and i dunno some part of me is thinking what if this really happens? sure it could be one guy talking shit.. but what if his not?

as a christian, i do believe that judgement day is upon us.. but i didn't think it would be this quick and certainly not in my lifetime! but if something crazy does happen and if today is all we have left there's nothing i can do and i love you all :)

What if..

It’s the scariest thing ever to realise how much someone means to you. When it hits you, I mean really hits you, all those thoughts and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder.

What if for some reason things don’t work out?- How are you possibly going to live without him?

Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had emotions for, now has the power to break your heart. Someone you never used to hang out with, now owns most of your time. Someone you never thought you’d love, now owns your entire heart. Someone you once lived without, you now wish to hold onto forever

13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear person who has hurt me recently,

I never appreciated him to begin with, i never thought he was the right person for you.. I always thought you deserved so much better, you deserved the world! After hurting you, not once but twice in a row.. i thought you were done, everyone was here for you, we were at your side, whenever you called.. whenever you were sad, whenever you wanted to talk..

We expressed how we felt and we thought you were taking it in, listening and understanding that he was not right for you, especially after the way he treated you. Little did we know, that deep down you had every intention of taking him back whenever he decided he wanted you back.

What hurts is that you disregarded everything we said, told him what was said about him, asked for our support after all the shit things he did and asking us to support such a shit person overall.. what do you expect us to do!? How can you expect us to just let go of all the negativity building up. The only reason we never mentioned our dislike for him in the first place was because we thought he made you happy - but clearly, he is selfish and only wants you when its convenient for him and does not treat you the way you deserve to be treated!!

He is a jackass.. full stop! I know it means throwing away years spent with him but seriously, how can you ever trust him again - how do you know that he won't do it again, you said you needed to experience it for yourself but he has done it twice already! when will enough be enough!?

I almost wish that you would read this.. just so you know that your actions are affecting everyone else around you. Cos when your hurting you come to us, but when your not.. its just you two again. If this happens again i don't know whether i will bother holding you while you cry cos i know the moment he wants you back you won't hesitate - it's just wasting all our energy on a lost cause.

Sounds harsh but.. i really don't want to see you hurt again and i know he will do it again whether it be soon or a later on down the track.

I know its hard to let go of someone you've become so involved with after all these years and after all the years of planning your futures but he isn't right for you. How can someone be the one for you when your families and friends disapprove and severely dislike him??

You need to wake up, you are so blind and brainwashed by his antics..
You need to realize that what you have is not love.. he does not love you. Clearly, he does not love you as much as you love him. When you love someone you don't treat them this way, you do everything in your power to ensure that they never ever have to hurt you like that. Remember that he has done this purposely.. three times now.

Sigh i just feel like i'm talking to a brick wall.. cos no matter what any of us say you will return to him. Feels like we are hopeless and all we can do is stand by and watch.