umm..
oops??

soooo... yea kinda got distracted once exams finished haha
but here i am, in a shit mood... which is when i tend to blog
where i can vent and let out all of my frustrations
buttt first... i think i need to catch up on this so called "30-day challenge" which i clearly failed haha

06- Favorite super hero and why
i don't think she's considered a superhero... but i consider a superhero someone who is fictional and has extraordinary powers and well yeah.. she fits the description! It would probably be Alex Mack from the tv show the secret world of alex mack... haha used to love that show and watch it everyday on nickelodeon!

but yea.. love her cos she was a female and i wanted her super powers at the time LOL how cute was i!?

07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
even though at times.. i hate to admit it



but yeah..

i'm just really getting tired of your antics, right now you just pretty much lied to my face and its not good enough anymore
since when did i deserve this treatment? i'm just tired of being angry that i have no energy left anymore... so i kind of don't care anymore

i just hope you feel bad for making me this way.. but isn't it funny that deep down inside i know you won't

like i've always said, it doesn't even phase you..

ffs what is wrong with me, seriously........

two exams tomorrow and im totally distracted
could be the number of v's ive had, the insect spray i went nuts with, the weather.. or this headache i have, but for some reason.... i think its cos of you =(

why can't i just be normal...
why can't i let go
why can't i ... blah blah

this sucks hairy balls sigh

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Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this

05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
so what better picture then one of my beautiful island that i like to call mauritius

"You gather the idea that Mauritius was made first and then heaven, and that heaven was copied after Mauritius"

- Mark Twain

can't wait til i can go back...

04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

haha, right now..
it would definitely be not leaving shit to the last minute.
Like literally, i can never start anything early so that i have it done by the deadline.. i'm always procrastinating.. LIKE NOW!

I really dunno why i do it, i just can't trick myself into starting something early.
I do work better under pressure - but i would really like to work well and finish something a few days before its deadline... sigh, maybe one day!

03- A picture of you and your friends
perfect timing, had bivs 21st last night soooo.. here is a pic of me and my lovelies :) .. pouting lol

so decided to keep going cos thats how much i dont like to study =)

02- The meaning behind your Tumblr blogspot name

umm, so i'm totally not creative and its just a name that i have been called.. like once or twice lol

been meaning to change it, but dunno what to??

totally stalked someones tumblr account and came across this
thought it would be interesting to do something like this instead of bitching and moaning all the time on here lol

of course, im procrastinating so i'll start today and continue on the 11th after my exams have finished...

but yes, productive studying at its best!! lol

30 Day Challenge:

01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

02- The meaning behind your Tumblr name

03- A picture of you and your friends

04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have

05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

06- Favorite super hero and why

07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

08- Short term goals for this month and why

09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days

10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

11- Another picture of you and your friends

12- How you found out about Tumblr and why you made one

13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

14- A picture of you and your family

15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

16- Another picture of yourself

17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why

18- Plans/dreams/goals you have

19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them

20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

21- A picture of something that makes you happy

22- What makes you different from everyone else

23- Something you crave for a lot

24- A letter to your parents

25- What I would find in your bag

26- What you think about your friends

27- Why are you doing this 30 challenge

28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?

29- In this past month, what have you learned

30- Who are you?

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DAY 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself

at my 21st, me and my boobies :)

interesting facts?? hmm.. here goes

1) i was born on halloween and my boyfriend of seven years stole my birthdate :P

2) i've realised that im a lot like my mother, we can't stand people with dirty clothes in our beds, can't go to sleep with our hair wet, like to dress up and wear makeup, psycho rage drivers, very religious, highly annoying, love swimming, love shopping (more like looking for bargains), love to dance.. the list goes on and on

3) completely obsessed with the colour yellow. Seeing it just brightens my day

4) totally in love with my doggy momo! got her as a birthday present 4 years ago and at first she was a pain in the ass but now im in love with her, will take her out for walks on the holidays.. poor thing has been stuck in the house this whole semester (besides the time i went all healthy and didnt eat junk food and took her walking everyday.. think that lasted for like 4 days max LOL) i love coming home and seeing her wait in the window for me. that's the one thing i love about dogs, no matter how much you neglect them.. they will always be excited and happy to see you :)

5) i'm nearly blind.. seriously, i'm like -6 that's more then half way to being legally blind!!

6) i have trust issues.. in more ways then i can let on - but i can hardly trust people

7) i can be the biggest bitch ever.. lol

8) i love long healthy hair

9) typical girl, i love my makeup, jewelry (tiff and co in particular), perfumes, clothes and shoes

10) i can't cook for crap.. but i think thats partly due to being lazy. i'm sure if i actually tried i would be good but then again, im scared of knives

11) i'm not a very independent person. i like to surround myself with others - don't like being alone.

12) i'm a very jealous person.. but i try to work on that

13) i love my family and my boyfriend with all my heart.. i would seriously be no where without them, and i totally miss the family roadtrips we used to do =( Saying that, i have the bestest friend anyone could ever have.. along with many close and wonderful friends

14) severe dislike for apple products - yes i am partly biased, but i grew up in a family all of which are technologically savvy and dislike apple. But yes, i have never owned an apple product, and i plan to keep it that way

15) everyone seems to have big plans for the future.. whether it be successful business people/accountants/whatever commerce people do, completing their masters or PhD.. my only life goal is to be content - i want one of those picture-perfect happy families. I wish to have a happy marriage that never ceases, accompanied with a lovely home and children, whilst being able to take care of my parents - that is my wish.

And as much as i know that to have these things, people need a stable job and income, I'm not too worried about those aspects. As i said im dependent on others a lot, but i know i have my boyfriend and i know he can and will take care of me. In terms of jobs, it has been a struggle.. but things always seem to fall into place. Having the dream job isn't a priority for me, a job is a job - you work to get money to provide and as i think life is too short, the greater focus and energy should be spent on the things that matter - things that will stay with you after we're all long gone

ta da!! the end.. off to study now

really wish you'd care..

sucks always being the one who gets hurt,
think i need to become stronger.
i guess its because i always rely on you to be my rock
but when your the one who hurts me,
i have nothing to protect me..

i hate being so vulnerable and needy
but most of all, i hate that you act like you don't care
makes me question whether you actually do

there's just too much going on =(

sick like a mofo
exam in a couple of hours..

will blog more after my hell is finished