is it wrong to decide to give up something,
and then look back on that decision and wonder what if?...

can it ever be too late?

**

yesterday, could finally relax after my essaying week.
bummed at kimmies for the last time before her parents came back, then went to a local club/bar called the drink. the place was pretty bogan/gay
and by gay, i mean actual homosexuals humping and grinding each other lol

today had tyler's 2nd birthday party

just realised i'm going overseas soon, yay excited :D
got a few things to do before i go.. including organising shit for dads suprise bday, getting eyes checked, getting all the assignments done that are due for when i'm away.. yuck

need to cut my hair, wanna go lighter but im pretty chickeny and probs wont do it lol

ok, getting cbfy now......................
my eyes hurt, should take contacts out.
blog again soon... promise :)

why can't i finish this damn essay?
argh, i have no self control... constantly distracted
ok, after this i'm going to seclude myself :)

anyways, yes yes.. life is a bitch, yada yada
i want.... things
& only you can give them to me

sigh i'm way too young to be thinking about these kinds of "things"
but i can't get them out of my mind..
am i crazy?

ok so i should elaborate.
the other day, we were just sitting down watching the olympics, when you said something interesting....

it has been on my mind a long time before that, but that made me realise that we were kinda on the same page

sigh, its probably just my hormone levels acting up haha.
& i know you're not too keen on the idea...
people ask, "what's the rush?" ..
well how bloody long do you want me to wait, 10 or so years?
screw what others think... they don't know shit all,
in the beginning they all doubted us,
and in the end all that matters is us.... and that "us" still exists

can anyone guess what i'm yapping on about? hahah.. it's quite obvious :P

but yeah, i know its not going to happen anytime soon... but just wanted to express that its on my mind :)

maybe i'll come back to this topic in a year.. or so
& i'll be a bit more serious about it then

for now, i'm an just an 18year old... trying to finish off her damn astronomy essay.