i can feel myself slowly giving up..

just heaps of crap mounting up.. making me feel like i shouldnt be doing this
i'd have to work my butt off to even begin competing with these people..
question is.. is it worth it? can i even be bothered??

i dont even think this is what i want to do anymore.. i feel like im steering off into the wrong direction.

what else is there for me to do?? i've only known science! im hopeless at all other things and they simply dont interest me.

but this has already broken me down, its only the beginning and i can't cope.

but i don't want to give up..
i don't want to regret quitting

if this is a challenge your setting me.. i need your help and i need your guidance.
i really can't do this alone.