8 years later..

always in my heart

RIP Alana

So went into Monash micro labs today
Met the principle scientist and he took me around to see the joint
He was a very nice man! Thank god!

anyways, there's a role opening up that hopefully I can get.. fingers crossed, still have to go through all the processes like wait for the job to be advertised then apply and probs get interviewed properly..

Fingers crossed it all goes to plan.. this could be my way in!
I will not let myself get too hopeful though, don't want to be disappointed ..
On that note, im thankful that you were able to help me get this far
I'm pretty sure i wouldn't have been able to even set foot in that lab without you
let's just see if you will let me forget that :P

I always expect too much from you..
I am always disappointed
You think I would learn, but I'm just that stupid. Why hold onto something that is no longer there..
Why must I always dwell on the past
Why can't I let go
Why do I let you haunt me..

I guess that's the bad thing about me
Once your there, you will always have a place, no matter what.. No matter how much time passes, no matter what you do, no matter how you treat me..

It's crazy because you will never know because I will never let you find out..