yay! exams are done
done done done.

update.
had my interview yesterday, one word: scary.
lol.. so friggin scary!
but hopefully he takes me.. cos i should be getting my car tomorrow and no money means no petrol and no petrol means no driving!

was supposed to get it today, but dad told me the bank closed at 4.30 and so we got to clayton at around 3:45, then i forgot the contract details and such so i had to go home and then tuan's like.. where's the car and i'm like, i forgot the fkn paper and then his like oh i'll come with you now (he was sleeping beforehand)

i start up the car and dad rings me and says the banks about to close in 3 minutes.. where are you? and then i'm like wth i thought it closes at 4:30 not 4!? i'm just leaving.. so i ripped it out of my driveaway and sped down then i remembered i saw like 2 cop cars so i slowed down.. got to clayton and luckily there was a traffic light, quickly put the car into park and pulled the handbrake up and the car like jolted (not too good lol) got out and tuan jumped in the drivers seat and i ran across the street to the bank.. it was like an action movie ahaha

doors were closed and i see the security guard coming towards me, and in my sweetest voice i said: would i be able to go into the bank please? and his like, no sorry we just closed
REJECTED!

ahaha.. yea so didnt get the bank cheque hence no car, but tmr shall get it i think lol


apart from that nothing new, i probs failed geentics and judging by todays exam maybe dev cos i did pretty shit in the assignments/mid sems and didnt write much on the exam... but we shall see.. apparently if we fail dev this sem we can't do next sem which totally just screws up my timetable! awesome.

need to buy my monash parking permit.. sigh hopefully i get it for 160 and not friggin 320.. fuck that! just do dodgy carpooling like everyone else. your choice monash, im willing to fork out the 160 but if u dont give me it then im doing dodgy carpool parking! :D

sooo.. im still vomiting everything i eat, so i dont have much of an appetite, mum thinks im anorexic and yells at me lol (kinda ironic when she's the one who always says i'm fat for my age and when she was my age she was as skinny as a stick and blah blah blah)

will probs go see doc's next week, as it is starting to get on my nerves and havent had a decent meal in ages.. i can only have soup! but yeah zomg i tried that crispy chicken deluxe burger from maccaz for the first time and totally loved it.. only to fkn throw it up 10mins later!

my throats sore, runny nose, dry cough soemtimes and phlegmy cough sometimes.... hmm i don't think its swine as i havent been exposed to any, or so i think..
but yeah, whole family is sick, but im the only one who's vomiting? hmm....

on another note, its a friends bday today and i was going to organise a dinner for her.. but she probably won't come lol. then i think to myself, whats the point? like she never makes any effort to come out EVER.. and then i feel mean thinking that so i ask anyways even knowing that she'll probs cancel.

sometimes i wonder.. is it my fault that i don't hang out with any of my high school friends? i mean like.. the group that always goes out live in bloody rowville and far away and always do shit at knox or berwick zzz so far, whereas the other group that like literally 1minute away from me.. just never seem to do shit all, never come out.. i dunno if its cos they feel uncomfortable/wanna be with their bfs/not allowed.. maybe a combination of all three.
so it makes me wonder whether its me..
maybe i dont make enough effort..
im not sure :(

look at me rambling - well at least im kinda looking forward to my cousin coming next year.. dunno what to expect though.. last time my other cousin came she said i spent too much time with my boyfriend.. but that was before she hit puberty and is now obsessed with boys lol
i wonder if things will be the same with this one.. especially since she doesn't know many people.

but yeah international fees are crazy! 20k a year!!!! like holey moley! and thats just to do what i'm doing, so i really hope she gets a career out of this! otherwise thats a whole lot of money gone to waste.

ok, im pretty tired now. i think my meds are finally kicking in - about time!
blog tmr or the day after.. we shall see
fingers crossed for my job and car!
xx



oh and i've decided.. in regards to you,
what we have is a worthless friendship
i'll fake it and smile, whatever does the deed.. only cos i pretty much have to
i wish i could just cut you out and not have to deal with you anymore
you really, really.. make me that angry
just seeing you.. or thinking about you.. i get angry
i shouldn't have people that make me feel this way in my life
backstabbing know-it-all bitch!