I've gotten so accustomed to tuan sleeping over.. that when he isn't with me at night i feel very uneasy and unsettled.. is that a word? lol

its weird now, its like i get very panicky & i have trouble breathing
and then the nightmares come

not sure whats going on but hasn't been going on for long, maybe its cos of the sleeping pills i was taking to help me go to sleep when he wasn't around or when i had work early the next day..

will see if it continues
i hope i'm not that attached to him cos thats just border line crazy
but i wouldn't be surprised
i am pretty crazy.. haha

weathers been good so been taking momo out for walks... havent joined a gym yet, havent applied for jobs, havent done much at all...
except learning how to cook a little and cleaning up every now and then

need to get a haircut, maybe i'll book it in for thursday before our little getaway to torquay =) going to torquay on friday morning and staying til sat night for our anniversary celebration..

almost 8 years!

when people ask.. how do you do it, how do you make it work and how do you know that his the one? ... i wish i could just let them feel how i feel for even a glimpse of a moment
an immense sense of happiness and contentment (again.. is that a word or am i just making them up as i go? lol) where you know that its a love that simply cannot ever fade hohooh i should write romantic novels LOL

but seriously... you just know, deep down in your heart, there is no doubt, there is no contemplation
& sometimes its too good to be true, i get worried at times.. that there is something that is going to get in the way & that life can't be that easy ... am i really that lucky? to have found the one in such a short amount of time that i get to spend the rest of my life with him

sometimes i just have to keep praying that we do get a lifetime together.. because i can't help feel that it really is too good to be true.