i seriously just wanna shoot myself in the head
why is this so hard
why can't i get what i want
why

argh
so. frustrating.
dont even know what i want anymore

i feel so fkn retarded
i feel like ive wasted time

why does it always have to be the hard route for me
always
no matter what i do
its always like i'm waiting for fucking forever to get what i want

i'm so irritated
and so bothered